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How much I am fed up with this endless routine! Im tired of pulling a smile on my face daily, whereas my soul is sad because of missing her. I am tired to bear those whom I cannot bear. Im tired of my chronic fatigue. Im tired of being strong. I am tired of lying to myself and nourish myself with hopes. I am tired to justify others hopes.

Life is not a fairy tale, why do I keep on believing in it? Im tired of struggling with maself and those around me, as the routine eats me up. I begin to feel myself a lost person. I am tired of being strong, but dont wish to be weak. How strange it happens in life, that what gave you a complete happiness, in time may give you deep sorrow. I feel this way recently… Hope time will heal me, and maself will return to my previous rhythm of life…

i miss u with all of me…

actually ive planned to complete my annual silent not more or less since my last post…but that time i was to bz wif my cousins wedding..and after that bz downsizing my tension for being back to lecture…for now i start to adapt the new atmosphere, minimizing my fully booked time-schedule, maybe i should promise to write more…as i promise to my fren.. and complete my promised letter… so a warm welcome to myself to my own republic of stupid statement…